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June 1, 2008

Tourist/Local

I received two reactions when people learnt that I would be travelling to Toronto: sheer excitement or mediocre well-wishes. Toronto is fine (for those who love it) but I'm a prairie girl at heart. I love to see the horizon; to know the weather before it is immediately on top of you. I move at a slower pace.

Yesterday, I took a break from some of the sessions because, let's face it, eight hours of hearing about CD4+CD25+Foxp3+ regulatory T cells, MELD/PELD, TRL4, IMPDH, Th1/Th2 and assays for ATP activity of reactive but not lytic B cells can get a bit overwhelming at times. On my break I went shopping. I went shopping at my must see stores (Zara, H&M, Sephora...) but did not buy one. single. thing. However, I was stopped one two separate occasions by tourists for general Toronto advice and directions. I suppose I blend in alright.

So what does the rest of my morning hold? First, I'm going to track down one of my drugs reps whom I can never seem to find. She wanted to look at some of my pictures from Africa. Then I have such sessions as "Defining molecular signalling", "Nonotechnology and nanomolecular materials" and "Gene silencing". I may just opt for the "Critical analysis of living donation" instead; I think my brain can handle that. Although, I may just need some more coffee -- this two hour time difference has really knocked me off my feet this weekend.

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May 30, 2008

Ugly

So here's a thought. Picture stereotypical stick-figure people: the male, so reserved, stoic maybe, with arms by his sides; the female, perhaps by sole nature of that so-very-A-line dress, with arms reaching out.

Here I am in TO. All rainy and grey and concrete. I rarely pack for trips earlier than the night before and last night was no exception. I may even be past exhaustion at this point. [Ugly=not enough beauty rest]

Wednesday, on leaving work later than I should have, it took me a while to figure it out. The perfect golden light of a setting sun -- and what was that? Oh yes, lilac blossoms; their pungent fragrance drifting on the early evening breeze.

This morning, pea soup fog blanketed the sleeping town. Then, just as I arrived at the airport, the sun cracked above the prairie horizon and the fog began to fade into sunrise of the softest of pinks.

Again, finding myself in Toronto, driving along the harbour, the horizon line is difficult to make out -- only just barely discernible at the intersection of slightly smoggy-yellow-grey sky and the placid blue-grey lake surface. Admittedly, this blending of earth and sky feels surreal ... but that could also be the sleep deprivation settling into my consciousness.

Nonetheless, I did dearly wish to share those moments with you.

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May 20, 2008

Waiting

Why is waiting so terribly hard for me? I know wait is my word-du-jour (peut être «mois»?). Since I sometimes don't fully grasp the intellectualized version of these these, I may get a hands on lesson from time to time.

Case in point: I ordered a certain item using certain reward points. It was scheduled to arrive on Friday. Since I was at work and the delivery folks required a signature, delivery was not made. The notification slip indicated they would come again today. I had the day off. I thought it would work out fine. Of course, for good measure and perhaps being non-committal, the delivery person checked off every single time slot he or she might drop by. Every. Single. One.

There are five minutes left before the end of the final delivery time slot. I really, really would like to get my item. With the deadline in sight, the anticipation was starting to get to me. So I made cookies from a completely made up recipe. (I needed a bit of a challenge. They turned out pretty darn good.) If I weren't typing, I would be sitting by the window with my hand tucked under me to decrease on the fidgeting. Back to waiting I suppose.

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May 15, 2008

Border line

Apparently spending three hours taking photos around the lake in the afternoon can result in a sunburn.

I will eventually get around to posting photos.

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May 7, 2008

Missing me?

Perhaps an update is due?

Last week, diagnosis: not quite bronchitis. Great. Antibiotics which I diligently take despite believing that these five-day-old non-resolving symptoms are actually viral related and the antibiotics won't do a darn thing. Feeling better currently ... actually breathing, not coughing, less congested ... but still exhausted.

Weekend: church women's retreat. Wonderful. Four hour nap on Saturday! Lots of pictures (not yet on flickr). Speaker's first point: Wait. The message I had from God the last Sunday I was in Africa: Wait. Much too obvious to be a coincidence. Not sure what it means, other than wait.

Monday: ultimate! First game of the season. We lost. Perhaps I can blame it on the wind. That works, right? I am still rather sore. Not entirely as much as expected. Great to play again though.

Tuesday: at work until after 8pm. What was I thinking?!? Of course, like usual, I will not put in for the nearly four hours of overtime I worked. I didn't get "prior approval" so I'd get my hand slapped again since I would be doing it a second time. Do I really love my job that much? Sure, I truly care about my patients -- but love my job? Maybe.

Today: car made horrible sound a few blocks from home. Nothing obviously, visibly wrong. Fluid levels okay. Differential diagnosis: rotors, bearings, brake pads, stone caught in brake, belt in engine misaligned. I am hoping for the stone. Since Murphy's law says it's probably something much worse, I am happy for all the AirMiles I am about to rack up. Hopefully she makes it to the shop okay tomorrow. Update: broken spring! Not even driving fast over potholes. Now have two brand new struts/

One week from today: birthday. Spent: at work in day, work event in evening. Presents requested: none. Dinner on Friday though?

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April 18, 2008

Worlds Collide (butting heads?)

Wednesday night I had a dream. A friend's mother was admitted to hospital with some sort of head issue. I got the phone call in the wee hours of the morning, "I know things are sort of weird right now, but would you please come." Of course I went. She was in the ICU. Since I knew the lingo, I chatted with the nurse. Overall status. ICP. Mannitol versus hypertonic saline. Vent settings. For those moments of my dream I knew all the right things. More importantly I was there.
Thursdays at work there are education rounds for the pharmacists. One of us usually presents to the rest of the group on a topic in our usual practise area. The topic was supposed to be metabolic syndrome. When I got there, the topic had been changed to accomodate a presentation by a PharmD student. The new topic? Head trauma: everything that I "knew" the night before in my dream.
It was just odd, that's all.

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April 15, 2008

Yes, it's that good

Ultimate is coming soon to a field near me. I watched some games at an indoor tourny this weekend. Definitely got the itch to play again.
It seems like it was such a long time ago that I played, that I almost forgot rule number one: why show up on time when you can show up late? At least I wasn't the first person at the team meeting tonight.
The thought of running, nay, sprinting for an hour and a half does bring with it a great sense of weariness. With it, consideration of running in the mornings again. But maybe that breaks rule number two: who needs practise anyway?

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March 26, 2008

Joe & Tim

Another thought from today...
Who knew 3pm on Wednesdays was a peak time at Timmy's? I'm guessing I didn't win anything (again) but we'll see after the walk. (Only two of five vehicles in my geographical prize area have been won to date ... there's still hope.)

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Worm

Happy to report that my library card has been found. It only took an hour of hunting around to find it. Now I'm off to try and prevent the extinction of libraries.

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Like a prairie sky

I have realised that things are looking exactly like a prairie sky -- wide open with seemingly infinite boundaries. That can be a little overwhelming at times.

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March 20, 2008

Back at the beginning

It's funny how the first full day of spring has come back on itself. I commented to someone today that this morning felt like forever ago; Truly much has happened since then. But spring started with snow and is now finally ending itself in snow.

With spring sprung, the season of regrowth and renewal upon us, it seems fitting that things should come full circle. We'll see how it goes. Only time will tell.

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March 11, 2008

Advent II

Easter this year is Sunday, March 23. As you may know; Easter is always the first Sunday after the first full moon after the Spring Equinox (which is March 20).

This "dating of Easter" is based on the lunar calendar that Hebrew people used to identify Passover, which is why it moves around on our Roman calendar.

Here are a couple of things you might be interested in:
::Based on the above, Easter can actually only be one (1) day earlier - March 22, but that is pretty rare.
.The next time it will be a day earlier, March 22, will be in the year 2285 - 277 years from this year.
.The last time it was on March 22 was 1818.
::This year is the earliest Easter any of us will ever see the rest of our lives!
.The next time Easter will be this early (March 23) will be the year 2228 - 220 years from this year!
.The last time it was this early was 1913 so, if you're 95 or older, you are the only ones that were around for that!

So, no one alive today has or will ever see it any earlier than this year! No wonder I feel ill-prepared.

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March 10, 2008

Advent

ad•vent (n): arrival that has been awaited (especially of something momentous)

Tonight I took down my Christmas tree. Boxed up my nativity set. Put the twinkly lights back in a knotted mess. Vacuumed the glitter from the carpet.

Yes, it is March. Also nearly five months to the day that I placed these things throughout my living room. I knew that when they went up in November it would be March before they came down. Preparing for and being in Africa took up the better part of the last two months.

Now it is two weeks before Easter. The other advent. Another long awaited piece of the story. I am not sure I am prepared for this one. Without observing Lent this year, it's crept up without much notice. And there is something to be said for preparation [Esther 2:12].

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December 29, 2007

Rock on

I just got home from my first evening of Guitar Hero 3. While my attempts seemed to impress A, I'm definitely not as good as this guy. Maybe with some practise?

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December 26, 2007

Literary Lapses

Literary Lapses is one of my favourite books by Stephen Leacock (a great Canadian author). It also describes the state of my own literary escapades. I haven't read a book since this summer. That all changed this Christmas. My father gave a book to my brother and I to share. My brother won first read at the book in a rousing round of rock-paper-scissors. Of course, I am fairly sure he didn't actually want to read the book.

So, after presents and before Christmas dinner, I picked it up and began reading Desperate Voyage (John Caldwell): the story of a man desperate to get from America to Australia to see his wife after World War II. The only way he can find is to buy a sailing boat and cross the Pacific ... alone and with only a few months before hurricane season. Did I mention he doesn't know how to sail? After passing through a hurricane, losing his mast, starvation and shipwreck, he eventually makes it home to see his love.

I too know nothing of sailing and little of the sea. It is not something that particularly interests me. I think what caused me to read the approximately 350 pages in twenty-four hours is the drive and motivation summed up in the last two paragraphs of the book:

And then I saw Mary. I remember her coming toward me -- and I believe I moved to meet her. For a second I saw her unfathomable blue eyes.... She was in my arms ... a thousand dreams had come true ... my trials on the sea were far away.
I can't describe that moment any more than you could. At such a time you live too fast for description in mere words. What mattered then was that I was home from the seas ... back again with the one person who counts in this world.

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December 24, 2007

Lustre of midday

As I drove home -- home as in the place where family will always reunite -- as I drove home, leaving later than anticipated, I was graced with a moonrise. It started large and golden on the horizon, inching its way up ever so gently. Until, although appearing smaller, its light refined and the ground took on the silver-blue glow that can only be moonlit snow.

Although not wrapped with paper or string or a bow, and without a soul around to remark on the glorious sight, my gift this evening was the lustre of midday to objects below.

Merry Christmas - may the reality of Emmanuel, God with us, bring you peace and joy this season and always.

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December 18, 2007

Restoration of faith

Canada Post came through. A friend of mine sent an ExpressPost package but flipped the numbers in my address around. It made it to my house on time (next day guaranteed) with a scribbled note of "try ..... instead." Pretty amazing in my mind.

I may have found a church to attend. Not that churches are difficult to find; most are well-signed and some have webpages. I'm a little indifferent but have decided to tag along with some friends and rediscover my ethnocultural heritage. This mennogirl will no longer be a mennogirl in baptist clothing.

Shopping is done. At least my fair share of the consumerism for this holiday. I like giving gifts ... even the ones you agonize over and then spend an hour in line waiting to purchase. Must move on to the wrapping.

In addition to spending money on others, I have sort of spent some on myself. As you can see, I'm off to Africa in 43 more sleeps. The travel details are all in place. I am taking a couple of days at the end to recuperate and I just booked the hotel for that. (If you want to know more about what I will be doing, send me an email or leave a comment. Email can be found in the "About me" section: link at top right.) I am so excited to head back. Will update more in the near future.

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December 16, 2007

Sunday Five

A Sunday Five List (from Meg)

Rejoice in the nearness of Christ's coming, yes, but also in the many gifts of the pregnant waiting time when the world (in the northern hemisphere, at least) spins ever deeper into sweet, fertile darkness.

What makes you rejoice about:

1. Waiting?
Waiting means I am forced to slow down. This is so very good indeed. Hum a tune while waiting in a que that doesn't move. Catch a glimpse of beauty. Marvel in the wonder of others. Be available for an opportunity.
Waiting brings patience and appreciation. It builds anticipation. Waiting is about finding joy in the journey.

2. Darkness?
The tiny sliver of vibrant colour that exists in a winter sunrise.

3. Winter?
The possibility of warmth. The beauty of each and every delicate snowflake. Reconnecting with family and friends.

4. Advent?
Anticipation and impatience for the already-not-yet-Kingdom. Like a lover who has promised his return, so too will my God come. Soon.

5. Jesus' coming?
That all things will be made right. Despite my best efforts to share and emulate this message, they will always fall so very short.

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December 4, 2007

Dreamable

The past two days I have shown up at work and have been told that I was in someone's dream. Sunday night I was in one of the nurse's dreams and happened to be eight months pregnant. (I'm not. And yes I'm sure.) Monday night I was in the social worker's dream: we were scuba diving in Thailand and had to pull a pedal bike up from the ocean that had a secret package that I had to keep hidden from whomever it was that was looking for it. Apparently I was better at hiding this package than she was. I wonder if I'll be in another dream tonight?

Thankfully there exist dream interpretation sites by which I can "analyse" these dreams.
People you know: Qualities and feelings of that person you want for yourself.
Pregnant: Not really sure what it means when someone else is pregnant but generally pregnancy appears to represent a part of yourself that is growing/developing (an idea, project, endeavour).
Diving: A little trickier. The end to an embarrassing situation, exploring your subconscious. Seeing others dive is a psychological and emotional balance.
Bicycle: Seeing one suggests a need to devote more time to leisure or recreation.
Package: Hidden creative energy, skills or feelings.
Hiding: Keeping a secret or withholding information.

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December 2, 2007

The right gift

I am struggling with finding just the right gift for everyone on my list.

A gift is not just about getting/giving a thing. (For instance, K has requested "nothing." Can I really get him nothing?) It is not even about doing the socially acceptable thing. The exchange of gifts is about bettering someone else. Perhaps that is why we also speak of gifts of time or gifts of presence. (Presence not presents!)

So while I will undoubtedly find something for each someone, maybe there can be other gifts I give as well: time, service, compassion, grace, vulnerability, comfort, generosity.

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November 23, 2007

Need-ia Media?

I thought it a strange coincidence that Caro and I should write about the same thing on the same day. Several weeks ago I cut back my cable to the barest minimum. I found there is still nothing to watch.
[I am not as brave to cancel my internet however. On one hand, it is my social connection. On the other, my various volunteer commitments would be much more difficult if I was without email access at home.]
It's all about balance. And balance is something I'm straining to find. Instead of TV for "me time," perhaps I could read a book or take a walk or meet you for coffee.

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November 13, 2007

Off to Kansas

When I moved two years ago, I really did think that I'd be getting away from "Windy-peg." Apparently, not so. All morning I've been thinking to myself that it sure is windy outside. So I looked into the weather forecast. Lo and behold, a wind warning was issued a mere sixty minutes ago:

WIND GUSTS UP TO 100 KM/H TODAY.
IN THE WAKE OF A COLD FRONT THAT CROSSED SOUTHERN SASKATCHEWAN OVERNIGHT, STRONG NORTHWEST WINDS ARE OCCURRING. AT 10:00 AM CST SUSTAINED WINDS ARE 50 TO 60 KM/H OVER MUCH OF SOUTHERN SASKATCHEWAN, AND GUSTS TO 90 KM/H ARE BEING REPORTED IN EASTERN ALBERTA. THESE GUSTS ARE EXPECTED TO SPREAD INTO SOUTHERN SASKATCHEWAN THROUGHOUT THE AFTERNOON. WINDS WILL ABATE THIS EVENING.

Don't you just love how they always put everything in capital letters? I think they have to -- to be heard above the wind and all.

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October 30, 2007

Mr. Wolf?

I hate the fact that there is something I can't fix. I sort of like being general self-reliant and it takes a modest amount of effort to allow myself to be the damsel in distress. The case at hand:
My computer is sort of broken and I don't know what to do. You see, the time likes to jump ahead--by hours, days, sometimes even years. I've changed the clock in BIOS. I've let the clock sync or not-sync to internet time setting places. I've virus scanned (with different programs), and chkdsk'd, and even defrag'd for good measure. I've system restored, uninstalled all underused programs, and restarted/unplugged the computer too. Various other solutions I've found during lengthy internet searches have been no good either. I suppose the one thing I haven't done is replace the CMOS battery ... but I don't actually have a mini-Phillips screw driver and I have no idea where the CMOS battery would be located. Besides, wouldn't a failing battery cause loss of time rather than gain?
So, the damsel in distress, something akin to little red riding hood, is left alone in the forest asking "What time is it Mr. Wolf?"

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October 25, 2007

Dye (for the) job

Do you think it more appropriate for a female funeral home assistant to have blond or dark (brunette/black) hair?

That was an actual question raised just before discussing the (dis)merits of "Hello Kitty" Christmas cards. (That question [would you rather a card or a pint?] is for another post altogether.)

So, I set out to do some sleuthing. A San Fransisco mortuary transplant service requires only that hair colour and style appear natural. Braids, cornrows and dreadlocks are not appropriate. A fascinating report at lifescript.com reports that: Black implies "exotic, sultry, tough, and mysterious"; Brown, "responsible"; and “Blondes are often not taken seriously in their profession.” Is that the answer then? Brunette is where it's at? Or better yet, does it even matter?

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October 17, 2007

Word Smith. That's Mr. Smith to you.

I like words. Big ones. Small ones. Words more ancient than your great-aunt Mary. Best-friends-ever names. A list of two-letter Scrabble(R) words. Words that keep things at a grade six reading level. And I like to string them together to make sentences; sometimes even paragraphs.

Recently, the book "Eats, Shoots & Leaves" was made popular. And so, it's all about the grammar. Not nearly as popular as, but possibly more humourous than, Truss' book is Victor Borge's "Phonetic Punctuation." (See "continued reading" for a demonstration or two.)

But have you ever found yourself pondering which word to use? Further vs. farther? They're, their, there? Calendar or calender? Is there stationary or stationery in the envelop(e)? Affect instead of effect? Lay, lie, lain or lied? Was that a complement or a compliment? There is help ... check out English Language Difficulties for more language confusions.

On a slightly related note, the Shorter Oxford English Dictionary has removed over 16,000 hyphens from its pages. What have we lost? The bumble-bee, ice-cream, pigeon-hole, water-bed and cry-baby to name a few. At least one other person has thought about it.

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October 13, 2007

Balm to the soul

My mind brings together strange connections. I drove home from work this evening, mesmerized by the light reflecting off the wet pavement as the rain spattered on my windshield. And I thought how calming it all was. I like driving in the rain. I have driving-in-the-rain music; tonight it was Plans (Death Cab for a Cutie).

From 'calm' I jumped to 'balm for the soul', remembering a recent conversation I had about funeral options. It started off normally enough: burial versus cremation? However, it soon veered onto a less traveled tangent: what about mummification? Embalming with little pots for your organs -- do they do that? And, apparently yes, "eternal memorialization through mummification" is an option for a mere US$67,000. Albeit, less expensive for Canadians with the current exchange rate. Not sure if the little jars are an option though. No word on 'stuffing' either.

Other magnificent, and less common, options include:
:: LifeGem ... turn your carbon into a sparkling diamond
:: Funeral Fireworks ... invite your friends and family to watch your ashes burst into a colourful tribute
:: Eternal Reefs ... incorporate your remains (cremated) into a man-made reef
:: Plastination ... remember the Body Worlds exhibit? It's an option.
:: Or pick up a copy of Remember Me (Lisa Takeuchi Cullen)

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October 4, 2007

5-10 Servings

It caught me a little off guard at coffee this morning. My 15 minutes of friendly conversation (complaining about work, holding out hope for the Riders, swapping kid/dog stories) and savouring that oh-so-good-and-caffeinated cup of coffee was rudely interrupted by my banana. I should not get upset with the banana. The banana was merely the messenger. My banana was being used as a billboard. I think for a certain re-release of a boy-in-the-jungle movie.

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September 28, 2007

It is enough

There are days I drop words of comfort on myself like falling rain & remember it is enough to be taken care of by myself.

I received this story from my daily Storypeople email. Perhaps it will be enough for me as well.

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September 20, 2007

No cracks for this drip

My modest plumbing skills have led me to a solution for my drippy kitchen faucet. I have learned a few things:
1) The valve under my sink is for the dishwasher, not the faucet.
2) I have a cartridge type faucet (versus a compression faucet).
3) Although of an obscure name, my faucet brand is a subgroup of Delta. Hence there is a lifetime warranty (similar to Moen). Replacement parts are being mailed to me directly. No ETA was provided however.
4) Had I known point #2, I wouldn't have sounded like the clueless female I was when speaking to the customer service rep.
5) I should have had a cup of coffee before talking to the customer service rep ... I couldn't even remember my own postal code. Probably aided greatly in earning the "clueless female" label.
6) I should probably invest in an adjustable wrench. It would have worked better than pliers. Maybe I'll get one at Home Depot tonight.

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September 16, 2007

Bloore with an "e"

The most commonly heard phrase was "I just don't get this one either." All because we decided to send the early part of a warm autumn afternoon inside at the MacKenzie art gallery. What we didn't get, and therefore spent quite a lot of time dissecting, was Ronald Bloore's exhibit. No, that's not the guy they named the street after in Toronto (that'd be Joseph Bloor).
Ron is a member of the Regina Five, which also includes Ken Lochhead, Art McKay, Ted Godwin and Doug Morton. Apparently his early stuff was quite a bit of white on white paintings. Very abstract pieces. On display were a few newer works, having been done on masonite (i.e. oiled linseed).
My personal favourite was the one I shall call "Elephant" (it's real name something like painting #23 but #23 is probably one that I "didn't get either"). While I haven't found the exact image, and although similar to No. 19, it appears to represent an origami elephant.
We also were taken aback when a tour-less tour guide, apparently eavesdropping on our bewildered conversation/analysis, asked if a) we were art students, b) did we come here often or c) were we familiar with the artist. Having replied no to the above, she herself became slightly bewildered -- mainly because we had actually spent considerable time with each of his works.
After Bloore, just about everything else made "sense" -- or at least it required far less interpretation. But then is less interpretation better?

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August 24, 2007

Which evening

If you had to choose, which would you prefer?
1) A crisp, autumn's-just-around-the-corner evening spent in the local coffee place with a mug of tea, enveloped by the hum of good conversation, catching up on the moderately-mundane events of the past week while drinking in the strains of a local singer/songwriter wavering through the air.
2) A crisp, autumn's-just-around-the-corner evening spent with ruby-red watermelon juice dribbling down your chin, the sizzle of burgers BBQing off to the side, children's voices carrying over from the playground, the rustle of poplar leaves and another chapter or two of that book you're finally reading.

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August 3, 2007

Alight

I love driving at dawn or dusk. The colours are absolutely amazing!
This evening, on my way to Wpg, the sun set behind a row of clouds and set the rest of the sky ablaze in subtle pinks while the early-ripened wheat fields joined in with a rich golden hue. It was gorgeous. I'm sure the photos I'll post when I get home will in no way do it justice.

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July 12, 2007

Exquisite

The art of transformation; a few clicks of the mouse and a handful of keystrokes is all it takes.

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June 20, 2007

Twinkle the ivory

You need to see this -- Tom posted the video of his performance of Rachmaninoff's Piano Concerto No. 3. (To think I knew him in high school ...) If you only have time for a bit of it, I might suggest you start with the 3rd movement.

Canadian-born pianist, Thomas Yu, is one of the most versatile artists. His concert career has become sought-after, since winning the 17th International Competition for Outstanding Piano Amateurs, taking first prize, as well as the Press Award and Audience Award. ...

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June 18, 2007

Eeek!!!

I'm not one to be concerned about my appearance. I'm fine with those wrinkles I've begun to glimpse and my multiple other imperfections. However, in a gathering of friends this weekend, I found it rather disconcerting when Tam discovered, announced and pulled out my first grey hair. I am now finding it slightly offsetting that I have broadcast this point to the rest of the world. (At least I never caught sight of said grey hair. Perhaps I can exist in denial for some time to come.)

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June 16, 2007

Ugh

I hate summer colds. 'Nough said.

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June 13, 2007

Flower pot

I've been putting it off since I moved (two years ago) but I finally did it. Flowers can now be found on my front steps. Maybe I'll even get around to getting some pots for the back patio some day!

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June 6, 2007

Game 5 - 2007

That's all she wrote folks. With that very first goal I had a sense of where the game was headed. Of course, the Duck's sixth goal rather finalized things for the Sens. Perhaps I should have stuck with my gut by not rooting for a team with red jerseys, resisting the nationalist approach. There's always next season ... in what, less than four months? in England?

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June 5, 2007

Move along

Hooray. This afternoon I was voted most likely to go for a walk.
(Except that I didn't actually go for the walk. Silly me, deciding not to procrastinate further on my presentations.)

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June 4, 2007

Games 3/4

I have nothing to say about hockey really. Glad to see the Sens won game 3. I didn't get to watch that one due to a wonderful bit of company. Seriously, or rather hilariously I suppose, I have not laughed that much in a long time. Tonight I managed to catch the third period. I was hoping for overtime but that was not to happen. So far it looks like my Wednesday is free, so chances are that I be watching game 5 and hoping things don't come to a resounding end.
Want an actual conversation about the game? Check out the G&M blog, CBC hockey, the NHL stuff or James Mirtle.

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Style Savy

Place your vote in the "Most Stylish Canadian" contest (via Globe & Mail).

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A Prick

I'm sure you are familiar with the speed with which a memory will come racing back in the presence of a certain smell, passing by a specific location, a meaningful date of the calendar or a song on the radio. Often those memories are good ones. But what about when those memories are of hurt or pain?
Wounds are always permanent. They can lose their pain. Their appearance can fade. The history can become a humorous dinner-party tale. But whether it be the slightest pin prick or a knife slashing to the soul, the moment cannot be reversed. The once continuous layer of your skin has become marred.
So one thing remains to be done: bind my wounds and I'll tend to yours.

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June 3, 2007

Sunshine, Summertime, & (almost) Sisters

I might complain about having company. I might complain about cleaning pre-company. I might complain about not getting anything done because of having company.
All I can say (with said company leaving within the next few hours) is that she is like the sister I never had. And for the rest of the afternoon I'll wander around aimlessly, missing my girl.
Regardless, enjoy the sunshine ... summer just might be here after all.

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May 31, 2007

Where's that again?

Tonight I had fun using Google Maps. I can even create labels and save maps and send people links. For example, I have company coming this weekend. They are from out of town and have never been to my place. Sure I can write out the directions. But what if you are a visual learner? For that very reason, I made a map with directions to my house. It's fantastic. And apparently a good way to spend a lot of one's time instead of doing other activities.

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May 30, 2007

Game 2 - 2007

At least the American anthem was a tad better for game two. But what was with this whole game? I realize they have great goalies --they should-- but can they really not get that wee little puck into the net? Ottawa has had a five-on-three in each game, yet no goals. Is this simple fact a sign that the end is near? Perhaps going home will be the answer.

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May 28, 2007

Game 1 - 2007

Last year I cheered for Edmonton and started blogging around game three. I actually followed some of the playoffs. Disappointed when the Canucks were out. Then something funny happened. I began cheering for Detroit and Ottawa. Why so odd? They have red jerseys. Some people with good memories will recall me making a statement to the likes of "I will never cheer for a team with red jerseys." I'm not a fan of red jerseys. I don't think they look good at all.

BUT, it was Detroit vs. the Ducks. And I'm against any team with "duck" in their name more than I'm against red jerseys. AND, since I currently reside north of the 49th, I figure that backing Ottawa is probably a good thing. (Disregarding the fact that Anaheim may actually have more Canadian players than Ottawa of course.)

In any case, I was only able to catch Ottawa's first goal due to a certain ultimate game. Despite the early loss, I'm sure my folks can do what needs to get done. Further game analysis from a chick with bizarre (and fickle) team loyalties is promised.

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Long division in WalMart

So, all I can think about this afternoon at WalMart while determining unit price and the better deal between various package counts (think long division without the paper) is this and this and, well, I guess this too.

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May 18, 2007

The nose knows

Whoever came up with lotion infused tissues should get five gold stars and a box full of cookies. My nose and I thank you so very, very much.

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May 8, 2007

Into something

Tonight was the first ultimate game of the season. We were absolutely horrible in the first half but played essentially point for point during the second.
Next game is Monday. They are aware it is my bday. It has been suggested that all manner of plans are in the works. Things will be interesting (and may or may not get posted for the world).
I look forward to wasting time with Toon-town folks this weekend. Remember, Lydia's on Friday ... see you there.

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April 26, 2007

Ultimate

I had my first Ultimate Frisbee practice on Monday. I really, really should have found a team last year. Ah well, at least the team is found now. The amazing thing is that I've found the elusive young professional crowd! Practicing again in just a few short days

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April 19, 2007

Exclaim

- my first ultimate frisbee practice is on Monday!
- I'm running again (in preparation for ultimate and just cuz I luv it) ... but not on days when the wind gusts at 80 km/hr!
- my black pants (from one of my favourite stores) finally fit again!
- I went to the linen supply at work, and they not only gave me an unstained labcoat but one that fit to a tee!
- my work email inbox is forever over the storage limit -- how is one suppose to keep it under 60,000kb?!
- I finished my presentation for Saturday -- why anyone would listen to me blab about transplant stuff for an hour is beyond me!
- I'm speaking twice at a national pharmacy conference in August -- why anyone would want to listen to me blab (repeatedly) is beyond me! ;)
- at the end of the month, I'm stepping down from leading young adult stuff at church; I'm really going to miss "the kids"!
- despite having one less thing on my plate, my to-do list is not growing any shorter!
- my dad promised me golf clubs for my 13th birthday ... I got them a few weeks ago!
- there's less than one month until I get to blow out another set of candles!
- I don't get to go to a close old friend's wedding in California next month!
- his invites were chocolaty and beautiful!
- I get to wear a fabulous dress (flowy and chocolaty and sparkly) to my best friend's wedding this summer!
- I'm going to have to buy shoes to go with the dress for the wedding!
- grass is growing, sun is shining, spring is here!

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April 18, 2007

Gwen & Venetian Virgins

Yup, you read correctly. In a few short lines I will connect the vocal stylings of Gwen Stefani and the book Virgins of Venice (which I picked up in Ottawa last summer).
Gwen, in her video The Sweet Escape (click to watch), depicts several women imprisoned yet with great luxury (i.e. rich fabrics, fashion-conscious outfits and gold--lots of it). Laven's book describes nuns in 16th and 17th century Venice as follows:

"The patriarchs who visited the convents of late Renaissance Venice saw lives caught between renunciation and self-indulgence, monotony and flashes of high colour. While touring cells furnished with fine rugs and embroidered linen, opening up chests of clothes and jewels, or cupboards replete with food and wine, the visitation teams were appalled by the luxury enjoyed by some nuns...And, yet, at the root of all the indiscipline, they knew, lay a wrong far more serious, for which the nuns themselves were not responsible. For no amount of reforming energy could turn the convents of Venice into well-run communities of obedient nuns, when those same institutions were filled with women who had no calling to the religious life...The nuns were noblewomen, women 'brought up and nourished with the utmost delicacy and respect'. Their confinement within the walls of the convent owed nothing to 'the spirit of devotion', everything to 'the impulse of their parents'...,'who to spare so much marriage money, impose commonly that life upon [their daughters]."

I'm not trying to parallel prison and convents (although both are designed to seclude their inhabitants from the bulk of society). While flipping through channels today, my memory of Laven's book was twigged by seeing Gwen's video and its displays of opulence in an unexpected setting.

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Study tips

For those of you studying for exams, you may wish to check out some answers Rob found. While I do not encourage such responses on your actual exam, you may find their perusal useful for procrastination from your studying.

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April 10, 2007

Dumb chick

OK. I feel so dumb. I have been having great difficulty changing my wiper blade...say for about 6 months. It won't come off. I've searched for how to guides. I have read my car book. Rusty maybe - tried the WD40. I've asked my dad to take a look. No luck.
So, feeling like a very dumb (perhaps even blond) chick I call a certain automotive store to confirm that a) they sell wiper blades and b) that they install said wiper blades. Affirmative. No appointment needed.
Why am I so concerned about what the car dude ("Darren") thinks? Maybe I'm not the self-sufficient woman I always hoped I would be. I suppose that's the first step: admit I can't do it on my own and I need your help.

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April 8, 2007

Mary Mary

Mary, Mary, quite contrary. How does your garden grow?

The Earth Policy Institute tracks the world's stockpile of grain - the amount available in storage after accounting for annual use and production - and says it's down to only 57 days of consumption. This is close to the modern nadir, a period in the early 1970s of poor harvests when levels fell so low there was only enough for 56 days. That earlier period of short supply prompted a doubling of world grain prices - an indication of the possible consequences if global warming takes a bite out of harvests. HT: truthout

Ancedotally, around the table at Grandma's house this weekend, one of my uncles (an educated farmer with a PhD to his name) was discussing the farmers' calamity: in the 70's, when the world's grain supply fell to 56 days supply, the prices inflated to compensate--to approximately $6.50 a bushel. Today, despite a similar fall in supply, the price hovers around $3/bushel. Although it is anticipated to rise, thoughts are that it will not exceed $4/bushel by winter.
At the same time, it's been said that people in South America can no longer afford tortillas due to modest increases in the price of corn.

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March 31, 2007

Season for

Did you realize that popcorn makers are seasonal items? Apparently they are fairly difficult to come across in the city at the moment.

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March 24, 2007

Facebook

I'm sort of concerned at the interest I am now displaying in this online adventure. Essentially Facebook is the same as 6degrees was back in high school. Who is connected to who? I found folks from elementary and high school. Folks from one of my old churches. I'm even friends with Stéphane Dion. (Fred Penner hasn't approved my friend request just yet.) Join if you dare.

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March 21, 2007

Exp ... now?

Hrmph. My box of chocolates states best eaten within 8 days. Considering they were likely purchased last Thursday, perhaps even Wednesday, I best eat them all now. It's tough but I think I can handle it.

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March 19, 2007

Life is a stage

So as part of being on the committee for the conference in Banff this past weekend, I was privileged to plan the Saturday evening banquet and entertainment. I booked Johnny Bagpipes. I also got to MC the event. Introduced folks. Drew door prizes. I even juggled (we had been taught how earlier that day). Folks said I had good stage presence. That I must enjoy that sort of thing. That it seemed natural or at least superbly comfortable for me. That I should come back next year. Guess I faked things pretty darn well.
What I realized is that I don't see the crowd when I'm in the spotlight. I realize they are there, sure. However, for all intents and purposes, a room of five is about the same as a room of five hundred. Except for the mic stand. And maybe the juggling.

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March 16, 2007

Smile and laugh

Really, that's all one can do in a situation like this. Smile and laugh. Last night there was a humongous snow storm in town. As such, the planes from Calgary couldn't land. As such there were no planes to transport yours truly in the Calgary direction this morning. When I arrived at the airport at 5:30 (think 4am-ish wake up), after not checking my flight status, I was told I was rebooked on the 2pm flight. I went home and slept.
Now, in Banff, my bestest pharmacist friend and I choose to chat all night and get caught up on things. Bright and early this morning, we wake up to a strange sound. Could that be the fire alarm? No. It doesn't really sound like the fire alarm. Is anyone else leaving their rooms? Do you hear fire trucks? (Think hot firemen.) OK, well, lets not get out of bed. "Fire alarm" increases in frequency of tones. OK so maybe we do need to go. Feel the door. Not hot. Look through peek hole. No smoke/fire. OK, leave room. Hunh. Looky-there. Water. Lots of water. Coming from the room next door. Interesting. Hang out in lobby. It's a false alarm. But then, why all the water. Ah. Silly girls had tied clothes lines to sprinkler head. Wait a sec. If water is next door and pooling in the hall, it's only a matter of time before it enters our room too. Back in room, water is pooling at door. And, oh look, through the wall. Get luggage off floor. Take pictures. Back to bed? Maybe have a shower and get ready for the day ... who knows when that might happen otherwise.
And the thing to top it all off is that I've just begun to read the following book: The Weather Factor: How nature has changed history (Erik Durschmied). The irony.

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March 10, 2007

Crisis averted (?)

Last night I hung out with some of the youth (i.e. the girls) at a local spa ... the one with the natural hot springs. The kids were great but I also remembered all the things I really didn't like about high school.
I was sitting beside the pool when a middle aged lady, unknown to me, suddenly begins to act just a little differently than normal. Her head drops back, her eyes start to roll, skin starts to pale, she is unresponsive. Her husband, in a panic, picks her up and starts walking around in a circle -- not knowing what to do. I get him to put her down, my towel under her head. By this time a person, who identified herself as a nurse, is checking for a pulse and trying to get some response out of the lady. Still no meaningful responses, some vocal utterances, varying muscle tone in the extremities, occasional failing of arms, eyes open and close. Physician appears just as woman begins to regain consciousness and then regain meaningful responses. Despite the doctor, the nurse and her family trying to convince her to go to the hospital - she refuses. Paramedics eventually come. Woman and family leave pool. I really hope she is ok.

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March 6, 2007

Engaged

OK ... so this happened a ways before Christmas, but for those who care, Garth is engaged to Danielle. And I have managed to track down the photos.
The story goes that Garth went with Danielle's family to Hawaii to see U2. That weekend he took her off to a beach somewhere. The same beach that he had arranged for a photography buddy of his to hide out and secretly take photos while he popped the question. Hooray for Google Earth. If I recall correctly, I think the wedding is in May.

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March 2, 2007

interpreting events

Wrt the earlier posts on saudades: not to worry. Some of my nearest and dearest were simply trying to convince me to move back last weekend. While it would be wonderful to be closer to them, I am already changing the world where I am right now. Sure, there may be bits of my life that I wish were something else ... bits I had previously and am now, essentially, coveting. God has given or, in this case, not given things to me for a very specific reason. With my limited perspective, chances are I won't get it until much later, if at all.
On other notes, since the computers were down nearly all of last week at work, I'm struggling to get caught up with the mounds of backlog on my desk at work. Looks like I'll continue my trend of working late this week.

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March 1, 2007

Nine

There are nine emails sitting in my inbox, unopened, not including spam. The oldest is from two weeks ago. I have no desire to read any of them right now but I can't bring myself to deleting them without actually reading them first.
To make you feel better, they are emails that do not require a response. Meeting minutes, the latest table of contents from a smattering of journals, weekly medical highlights.
Instead, I will put on some dry socks (silly snow) and go make some dinner.

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February 27, 2007

Just a word

There is a word which I think sums it up: saudades.

(Read more at Wikipedia or in this essay)

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Argh is not a Scrabble(R) word

Nothing I attempt to write today makes any sense or is appropriate for this forum.

Maybe I can formulate a succinct thought pattern in the next day or two.

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February 17, 2007

What's red and white ...

Happy (belated) Flag Day!!!
(it was on the 15th ... I forgot to mention it)

...and...

Hooray for 60 years of Canadian citizenship!
Can you pass the citizenship test?
How do you become a citizen?

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February 16, 2007

Alas, at last

At last, my love has come along
my lonely days are over
and life is like a song*

Alas, I am in love with the guinea pig. That is, I am in love with idea of a guinea pig at a potential pet.
The local pet place only had moderately large and rather timid creatures. I'd prefer to start with a slightly-wee-one and watch him/her grow up.
The hamsters were cute but their anticipated interaction potential is quite low.
But the puppies! Someday, I will get myself a dog. That is, at some point in my life when I slow down a bit, I will get myself a dog.

*At last - Etta James

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February 15, 2007

Un-(in-)decisive

I'm heading off to a local petstore. There are all sorts of fuzzy critters. Sorry to those who would suggest feline or canine -- neither are viable options at this point in time. The option are (I think) hamster or guinea pig. Coworkers suggestions included chinchilla and ferret. I think ferret is out. I've heard the chinchillas can be a little vicious. The present moment has me leaning towards guinea pig. Any thoughts?

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February 10, 2007

Could be me

Today I think my hair was doing a Jennifer Grey in either Dirty Dancing or Ferris Bueller sort of look. New hair is great, it really is.
All day I kept thinking that Jeanie would be cooler if it had TWO n's ... Jeannie? Maybe it's just me. I AM partial to the two n's after all.

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February 6, 2007

Payable to

Tonight I went to the second annual dessert fundraiser held by the women's group at church. The funds raised were directed to Soul's Harbour Rescue Mission (formerly Soul's Harbour and Regina Rescue Mission ... recently merged). The organization just purchased a new building that doubles the capacity of their women's shelter.
Our table bought two cakes ... one vanilla with decadent chocolate icing and the other essentially brownie in cake form. I almost bought a box of swan-shaped glazed cream puffs with truffles for over $200 but backed off once the bid hit $230. I had fun jacking up the bids, although I was fully prepared to fill in a higher dollar amount on my cheque.

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February 2, 2007

Lives lived

Your past life diagnosis: I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern USA North-East around the year 450. Your profession was that of a librarian, priest or keeper of tribal relics.
Your brief psychological profile in your past life: Seeker of truth and wisdom. You could have seen your future lives. Others perceived you as an idealist illuminating path to future.
The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation: Your lesson is the development and expansion of your mental consciousness. Find a good teacher and spend a good part of your time and energy on learning from his wisdom.

Past Life Analysis - HT: Shan B

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January 18, 2007

Familiar comfort

When answering the question of "Top Gun" versus "The Lakehouse" yesterday, my immediate response was "Top Gun of course ... does The Lakehouse even begin to compare?".
Today, in thinking further about my answer, I think I gained an insight about myself. While I am certainly up for an adventure and a challenge, I also cling to what I know. I am traditional in that sense. The situation may appear to be novel but my perception is of a scene from days gone by.
So of course I opted for Top Gun. It's a classic. And I find comfort in the familiar.

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January 17, 2007

At the height

Two of my current fashion delights are Rachel Roy (quite a delightful spring collection she has out - and not one of foodstuffs either) and J. Peterman (a new catalog is out - you may wish to send for a copy).

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January 15, 2007

The world is a warmer place

My evening shall now be called successful. One more person can now crochet. At Bible study this evening, I picked up some crocheting that happened to be laying around. (Later we discovered that we had correctly identified its owner from the four male house tenants.) I was working on said handiwork project when one of the girl commented she had a crochet hook and yarn but didn't know how to crochet. So, 30 seconds later, she was on her way. Progressing quite confidently with even stitch formation I might add. Had I not known better, I would have suspected she had done this before.

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January 12, 2007

A list

Things I like about cold:
:: it's great to warm up
:: fuzzy socks, thick blankets, snowpants
:: frozen eyelashes
:: log fires
:: snow
:: ice skating
:: that, after 6-9 months, I get a season loosely termed "summer" (a.k.a. construction)

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January 9, 2007

Overfloweth

After working (a great deal) later at work than I should have I went grocery shopping and broke the first two rules. I went hungry and without a list. At least it was 10% Tuesday.

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January 8, 2007

Words in my mouth

There are some days when my words aren't quite good enough. Somehow a few lines from a handful of songs or well crafted soliloquy from movie capture my sentiments far more precisely than I could ever hope to put forth. Perhaps I am more (pop) cultured than initially thought. So much for a girl who grew up on CBC.

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January 4, 2007

It's a happy day

Sing with me ...

It's a happy day, and I thank God for the weather.
It's a happy day, and I'm living it for my Lord.
It's a happy day and things are going to get better.
Living each day by the promises of God's Word.

I'm serious ... it feels like it's April outside, the most humongous snowpeople are being built, Grey is the new Sex*, my hair looks good tonight, I might just get company next weekend, I have a plethora of great books to read and tomorrow is FRIDAY. Yessirree-bob, life is beautiful.

*I'd love it if someone would actually quote me on "Grey is the new Sex" (yes, I do think Grey's Anatomy is the new SATC). I googled it and I think I might be the first person to have some up with that line. It really isn't that original, it just follows a clever pop-culture phenomenon, but I thought it was great when the thought flew through my head this evening. Also, Meg of Bridget Jones goes to seminary wrote recently of GA ... have a peek.

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December 22, 2006

They love me, they really do!

Upon returning home this evening (after a wonderful chicken, roasted red pepper and asparagus sandwich at Moxie's), I discovered that I'd won an award. I didn't think I'd won the award since it's getting a little late but, nonetheless, there was the email.

And what is the award you ask? Well, it is entitled the "New Hospital Pharmacy Practitioner Award" and is awarded annually to two pharmacists within their first five years of practice. It's a nice deal - airfare, hotel, conference registration, award money (which all reads: have fun shopping in Toronto).

This award recognizes new hospital pharmacy practitioners who, through their service to patient care, to education or research, to the profession and to the society, are worthy of recognition that devotes promising leadership, dedication and commitment to practice excellence and professional growth.

Happy Christmas to me!

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December 20, 2006

Greenery

Last night I dreamt of greenery --- salad that is. I made salad and ate salad and even had to go in search of the salad. Typical dream stuff I know, just a little different subject matter.

I think salad or, more precisely, vegetables, are the one thing I missed while in Africa. Boiled cabbage and carrots in our dinners was just not quite enough. Thus, salad has been on the menu nearly every other day since I've been back.

On other notes, I am needing to fall into the consumerism that Caro discussed a few days ago. I asked my mom what she'd like/want/need for Christmas. I got the dreaded, "Nothing. If we need anything, we would have already bought it." Alas, I am set to wander aimlessly through busy malls until (hopefully) something catches my eye. Any suggestions for parent gifts? Or even little brother gifts for that matter?

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December 14, 2006

Holidays, guilt and evolution

So I am not studying for my exam tomorrow like I should. Instead I am feeling guilty. Yes, you heard correct, guilty. Not guilty about not studying, that would be termed 'slightly panicky'. Guilty about the holidays.
I haven't decorated or set up my tree. I haven't written the Christmas letter or mailed out cards. I haven't done any Christmas baking. (Thank goodness for the endless mounds of baking and chocolates and other goodies at work. It has provided much needed sustenance while working late this week before heading off to yet another meeting.) I haven't really even gone gift shopping. (Though I do have a few things picked up, they only scratch the surface).
I feel guilty because I haven't done my holiday duty ... and who knew there even was such a thing?
What it boils down to is that I must be evolving into my mother.

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December 6, 2006

A difference of opinion

What happens when there is a difference between what you think is the best option and what you want to happen?

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November 15, 2006

Fruit & veg

Truth is knowing a tomato is a fruit, wisdom is knowing not to put it in a fruit salad.

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Up, up and away

So it's been a few days. Yesterday someone mentioned that I may be prone to thinking of myself as a bit of a tomboy despite the fact that I am very much a girl. Perhaps this comes in light of my activities the past few days?

Things I have done: programmable thermostat is now installed and behaving as desired, mp3 player is nearly all programmed and ready to go, new travel locks have been set to easily recalled combinations, timers for lights and TV have been set. Notice all the references to programming?

Now I just have to finish packing for Africa!!! Yesserri-bob ... darling dearest is heading off to a much warmer climate. Far away from the land of snow and scraping frost in the morning and toques and mittens. I will do my best to find an internet cafe to share all my stories and maybe even a few photos. Not to worry ... I'll be back in December. Tootles.

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November 10, 2006

Thermostat 1: Handywoman 0

So, I went down to my local Canadian Tire (CT) in search of a few items and ended up picking up a programmable thermostat (PT). I installed said PT. I even got to use my cordless drill. But the silly PT, while it worked to a certain degree, it only worked in an "on" sort of fashion. Despite it's programmed settings, it continued to allow the furnace to heat and heat and heat. I figured it was to prepare me for my upcoming Africa adventure.
So what did I do? I turned off the breaker. And I went shopping. And then out for drinks and appy's. And then I came home. Fiddled with the silly PT. Googled to find potential issues ... with my luck it's either a faulty PT or I messed something up royally. Then uninstalled silly PT and reinstalled old manual thermostat which works just as it did before. Thus confirming faulty PT and nothing royally messed up. :)
It is now 2:30 am. It appears I shall venture back to CT tomorrow, after a long sleep, and find myself a new PT. Perhaps of a different brand name. And if nothing is to be found at CT, perhaps Home Depot or Rona will prove to be more helpful. Maybe I can even find a helpful (and cute & single) lad to assist me.

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November 8, 2006

Locusts in Africa

What I found this evening at allAfrica.com: Gambia: Kicking Locusts Out

The Project Coordinator and his team of experts have been charged with the responsibility of ensuring that The Gambia is locust-free.

Yes, that did bring a smile to the face of some of you, didn't it?

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November 7, 2006

Gracing the ivory

I just got a phone call from a friend who is working at a shelter/mission here in town. Their choir meets tonight but their pianist, having been unable to attend the last two meetings, is also unable to make it tonight ... would I be able to fill in. Apart from thinking I need to get call display to screen my calls, all the reasons why not to go raced through my head. Sure I love to play piano but I have never played well in front of folks and I have really never played well when having to accompany. I stumble through chords, can't transpose in my head and no longer know anything by heart. In short, I am inadequate for what they need.

But, for some reason, I said yes. Tonight will certainly not be about me or some amazing musical ability. This was a "who I am" moment/opportunity: I am a servant. (I come early to set up, stay late to clean, make sure everyone has a drink and is well fed. I toil in the background.) Tonight is about serving and offering what I do have.

It comes down to bread and fish. I will bring my fingers, some sight-reading ability and old sheet music from that box in my closet and let God work his thing.

In an old post I quoted Brennan Manning: When I am serving, that is when I feel closest to God.

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November 5, 2006

It's what's inside

There's nothing quite like Chinese food that is absolutely no good for you. Especially the fortune cookies that come with my dinner-for-two from the place in my neighbourhood. Tonight's fortunes (one cookie had 2 inside):

Opportunity is knocking on your door - answer it tomorrow.
Your dearest wish will come true.
Your most memorable dream will come true.

Tack on a "in bed", "under the covers" or "in your pants" should you wish.

Oh yeah, and how 'bout them Riders?!?

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November 4, 2006

Moonrise

The full moon, gently rising, sat snuggly behind the layered clouds and fog. All the while it shone through the bare branches of late autumn trees, devoid of foliage, and periodically obscured from view by the downtown houses in need of some love and a little less of some types of attention.

This evening, I realized I'm entering the season of sunrises and moonrises. For the next four to five months, I will no longer experience the faint rays of sunlight. (Except for the rare occasion of a day not at work.)

I also realized the walk from the back door at work to my vehicle can be a little creepy in the evening. Makes me look forward even more to those times when I am called back at 2:30 in the morning.

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November 2, 2006

Clenched

Remember the story of the little boy with his hand stuck in the vase? His parents tried everything they could to get it out: lotion, soap, vaseline, WD40. Yet nothing worked. After hours, just before they were about to break the vase open, his father asked why he had stuck his hand in to begin with. The boy answered, to get the penny he dropped inside ... and he didn't want to let go and lose his penny again. Why do I hold on so tight to the things, or ideas, I want so badly?

Someone once said that one should hold blessings in open hands; still in one's possession yet equally available to be given back to God. In many ways I am so very selfish and I don't let go.

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October 31, 2006

Winnipeg

Having just returned from a wonderful few days in glorious Winnipeg, I have decided to post a few pictures from my travels. Friday was a chance to see the girls and distribute the next book for our reading pleasure. Saturday was a Manitoban "social" ... with a Halloween theme, hence the costumes. Sunday I got to see the wonderful Janice (and finally meet this Jeff of hers). Monday and today were days just to sit back and relax a little.

Of course, there are always many stories to be told. You'll have to ask in person since it really would take volumes to detail everything. All said, it was really, really good to see them all again.

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October 25, 2006

What an amazing day!

Today was good. It all started with a gorgeous sunrise ... pink and orange streaking through low-lying clouds and an ever so foggy field.

As I was standing in line at the coffee place at work, I was thinking that it would be nice if the lady actually remembered my order. You know, to be one of the regulars. And whaddya know - she did!

Then I got my preliminary schedule for my upcoming trip to The Gambia. I am now starting to get excited folks! I'm actually going to be gone for an extra 3 days than I initially thought. There are ants in my pants, I'm so eager to go. :)

And then, when I picked up my mail, I got a copy of the J. Peterman catalog. It is reminicent of how catalogs used to be; hand drawn images, tailored lines and a stunning commentary for each piece. Oh be still my heart (and put away that credit card).

Did I neglect to mention that it is now two months 'til Christmas!!! How very exciting.

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October 23, 2006

All things come together

Someone who recently went back and read through my entire blog (someone with a lot of time on their hands), noted that almost exactly two years ago, I mentioned The Gambia. Specifically an old volunteer posting for a pharmacist in The Gambia.

I'd completely forgotten about my contact with VSO until today. And I had no idea that the posting was also for The Gambia.

With regards to the other bit in that old post: I do feel like pharmacy is part of the vocation but not the vocation in and of itself. The career I'm in simply provides me a means with which (or by which) to do the things God has pressed upon my heart.

In the past two years I have taken on many new things. Each opportunity was a step in the plan; a step that brought me closer to this moment today.

I still think it is extremely important to have goals and dreams yet also to not be discouraged when one cannot put a checkmark beside them. In spite of the most vivid imagination, God's plans will never cease to amaze. Maybe I'm just catching onto what not my will but Yours actually means.

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October 22, 2006

c'est fin

Last evening at 1810h I walked out of the hotel; the conference was finally over. I realize -- uh no -- I have always known that I stress out over the little details of things. Big picture stuff I can handle. Last minute details, hours before the 'deadline' - they nearly do me in every time.

The evaluation forms show an overall conference rating of 4.3/5. Not too shabby I think. Comments were not anything I wasn't expecting: the typical thoughts on food, noisy ventilation, too short, too long. One final report and I'm done this baby. Being education chair was great but oh so time consuming. (My volunteer capacity is not really over ... I don't say no, remember? I now have a bigger title but what I think is actually less work than this past year.)

At least it's over and I can start thinking about Africa!!!! Only 24 more days (maybe less when you read this ... check the counter over on your left).

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October 14, 2006

Hi Mom!

Hi Mom,
Welcome to my blog. There are lots of things here. I think it is fairly self-explanatory to find your way around: you can search or even browse through archives or by subject headings. Commenting can sometimes be a little tricky, so let me know if you're having difficulties.
Love you much,
J

PS - Yes, sometime I do write about what I had for dinner (I recently had a post about Thanksgiving dinner for example).

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Fickle

I've mentioned it before and I'll say it again ... I don't get hockey or football or baseball for that matter. I mean, I know the basic rules and I know the difference between periods, quarters and innings and I know a few team (and even player) names. I just don't get the passion behind undying support for "your" team. Until playoff time, and even a great deal into playoffs, I am as fickle as can be when choosing "my" team. Every so often I will try to follow the general happenings a bit. For example, the Riders won last night (against Montréal no less). There was even the Detroit/Phoenix game on last night during my dinner with Sarah at Moxies. I think Detroit needs new uniforms ... the red one does not make me want to cheer for them.

This evening, in continuation of my procrastination, I scanned the channels and was about to watch the Senators/Canadiens game this evening. But no. I cannot watch said game. Instead of options, I "get" to watch the Leaf/Flames game. And how is one supposed to pick a team from that match-up I ask?

Rather than pick between two equally unenchanting options, I have decided to quit procrastinating, sit myself down and work on this conference thing (5 more days and counting! -- the pressure's on).

Of note, it is made more enjoyable by the sounds of Regina Spektor ([thanks Sally for the heads up] notably 20 years of snow) and Imogen Heap's Speak for yourself.

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All you have to do is dream

I've realized that I haven't recalled dreaming for months now (excluding daydreams of course). That is, until the past couple of nights and then three last night. I only remember the latter two, as I was awakened from my slumber on the couch by the jarring ring of my telephone. Alas, time to get going today and attempt to get something done. Actually taking a Sabbath tomorrow is the goal at hand.

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October 8, 2006

Giving thanks

In lieu of tomorrow, Thanksgiving day in Canada, I'd like to take a moment to give thanks. I got to thinking today, that despite being really tired, it was great to have company this weekend ... Rob, who came to the Stones with me and then took in the local sights and Jade, my 'best friend' from undergrad whom I haven't seen or talked to in about two years. (How time flies ... we're getting so old.)

Anyways, last night the three of us stayed up until about 1 am just a-chatting away. It's always a little interesting when folks from different social circles come together ... but it was all good. The laughter and stories made for a wonderful night and a very short sleep as I have to work this weekend.

Of course, beyond Rob and Jade, there are many and is much to be thankful for as well. There's the Winnipeg crowd and the Saskatoon crowd and the once-lived-in-Saskatoon and now-scattered-across-the-earth crowd. Of course there's the family and the church crowd. Folks whom I can hang with and folks who make me think and some who do both. There's an amazing job and never ending professional volunteer opportunities. There's a sun and a moon and colour changing leaves and the hope of a summer's warmth and the anticipation of gentle snowfalls and lakes and streams and birds and clouds and mountains and endless prairie. And there's One who made it all possible--the God who loves me and Whom I love in return. I am rich indeed.

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October 5, 2006

DC

DC is amazing. Vast amounts of things to see and do. Be aware that the city is built on a series of small hills -- when walking to and fro, one gets a much better workout than one initially anticipates.
Nonetheless, I had a great time. I saw lots of things, learned a few things, and enjoyed the 30+ weather. (Don't think I burnt though.)
Now it's working over the long weekend and enjoying company and settling back in at home. I'll be sure to get pictures up shortly and perhaps a few stories from my trip as well. Happy Thanksgiving!

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August 27, 2006

Mind games

I began running the morning of August 20, 2006 after a long, long absence. I ran a fair bit in elementary and high school - cross country and various track & field events. My excuse for not getting out there was that I needed new runners. I still need new runners but I'd had enough of my own excuses.

That first run a week ago was not so much running and quite a bit of walking. I was stiffer than a board for the next few days. Things are better now. If you want, you can check back to see how well I am doing ... in consistency that is. You'll find the link on the left side near the top. I do this out of my own selfish needs for accountability and encouragement.

Running is mostly a mind-game for me: can I get myself out of bed, can a choose a suitable pace, can I push myself those last few squares of the sidewalk? No distractions -- just me and the pavement...and maybe a few of the regulars I pass each morning. Perhaps I'll write their stories in the future.

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August 21, 2006

Milan choli

Ignore the title. Neither word has anything to do with this post. It was a poor attempt at creativity. I suppose I might be feeling differently if I were in Milan and happend to be purchasing a choli. Shopping, let alone shopping in a foreign country, is a quick fix.
I'm just in an odd mood right now. No need to worry. I'm just procrastating. I'd hoped to have some news today ... no such luck. I'll likely hear tomorrow; they'll pass the message along in person. A message of yay would mean a tough decision: am I ready to settle down, ready for added responsibility, ready for a commitment? A message of nay would in many ways be a relief: I should be content where I am at and slow down my ambitions; learn to say no once or twice along the way.
My company also left. It was most wonderful to have them here but there is always a small sense of loss when folks leave. These two should be back in the general area in a short while. I'm looking forward to having old friends that much closer.
A few hours of listening to Arcade Fire and Blue October has also added to the melancholic-restless feel for the afternoon.

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August 20, 2006

Meddachschlop anyone?

Oi. Me needs some sleep, ya?

So Friday, early to bed. Saturday, later to rise. Chores. Meddachschlop. Dinner with friends. Taking tickets at the Rider game ... and sweet seats at the 50 yard line ... and they won! Artichoke dip, virgin bellinis, and great coffee in the company of good friends. Late to bed. No sound sleep to speak of. Morning run. Fresh coffee. Church. Waffles for dinner. Boating leading to a wet bum for several hours. BBQ/picnic. Laughter and stories and laughter and community. Sleepiness. Msg: call your mother. Sleep?

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August 17, 2006

Sleep

When I complain about sleep these days it feels quite different than when I complained about sleep in university or in high school. I jokingly mention that I feel old (not as old as some folks out there mind you!). You know you're old when letting your head hit the pillow at 9:30 is not outrageous in the least or staying up past 10:30 makes for a very difficult next day.

So when I've been up until at least 11 every night, and slight more than 4 hours of shut-eye on Tuesday, and rather amazed at my level of functioning at present. I've tried to force myself to stay awake this evening (hence a post at 11:15) ... being oncall, I find it worse to be awoken and have to snap my brain into action in a split second than to delay bedtime by an hour or two.

And it won't settle down anytime soon. Fortunately I got through a few meetings and such earlier in the week. Now to get back to conference planning ... and maybe even some company this weekend! Oh, make that company AND going to my first ever 'Rider game (I get to take tickets!). This means I get to go to the game for free. The free-ness appeals to my menno side.

Speaking of menno; I had meant to start the Menno Monthly Magazine. Of course, it would be free. It would feature such things as recipes for borscht and zwiebach and rollkuchen, articles on various bits of Anabaptist theology, a decent section of births and deaths (you have to play the Menno game after all), and paramont to it all, the sections intended for male and female readers would be clearly separated and identified as such ... no need for any confusion here. If you consider yourself to be a potential reader of such a fine publication, please let me know. I aim to please and entertain -- no one should have to resort to the evils of playing cards, listening to music, or (heaven forbid) dancing!!! ;)

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August 5, 2006

je ne parle pas en...

This past week I've been faced with languages I do not understand. Both instances were in written form, which I do find I learn faster than when spoken/heard. One instance included ancient texts; the other a more recent communication form. Learning is good, but in these cases rather frustrating ... I only want to dabble, not actually learn the full syntax.

First of all, as we have been working through the book of Joel in Bible study, I received an article entitled "When is a locust just a locust?". The title was fine. It was the subtitle that worried me (Patristic exegesis of Joel 1:4 in the light of ancient literary theory). When I have to break open the dictionary at the point of the subtitle, you know things are going to be a challenge. As I flipped through the pages, I was amazing that nearly half of each page was devoted to footnotes. Then I began reading, dictionary and google by my side. I soon realized that the one latin class I got through in university came in handy ... at least I could get the gist of those lengthy latin quotes. The greek and hebrew on the other hand--well it was all greek and hebrew to me. :)

The other language I do not understand is php. Somehow agreeing to up