So I am not studying for my exam tomorrow like I should. Instead I am feeling guilty. Yes, you heard correct, guilty. Not guilty about not studying, that would be termed 'slightly panicky'. Guilty about the holidays.
I haven't decorated or set up my tree. I haven't written the Christmas letter or mailed out cards. I haven't done any Christmas baking. (Thank goodness for the endless mounds of baking and chocolates and other goodies at work. It has provided much needed sustenance while working late this week before heading off to yet another meeting.) I haven't really even gone gift shopping. (Though I do have a few things picked up, they only scratch the surface).
I feel guilty because I haven't done my holiday duty ... and who knew there even was such a thing?
What it boils down to is that I must be evolving into my mother.
wind blows deeply
Holidays, guilt and evolution
Comments
:: Posted by caro (December 14, 2006 9:37 PM)
I always get into a rebellious mode as Christmas creeps up in regard to the "duty" that every girl/woman feels (I've yet to hear a guy complain about christmas cards or baking). I usually plant my heels and decide that I absolutely DO NOT have to do anything and anything I do do will not be out of duty but out of a willing spirit. However, the closer Christmas comes the more the guilt pushes down my well-made rebel defence and by the time it's over I decide that next year I will comply and do so well in advance. I secretly love to hear that someone hasn't sent out cards or finished gift shopping, so your post made me glad!