wind blows deeply

I found some new acquaintances last night. This last Sunday, I decided to go back to a church I'd visited shortly after moving. It truly felt like home. Comfortable, like pulling on the favourite pair of jeans. In the bulletin, there were two things that caught my attention: 1) a women's retreat in February and 2) a "career care" group. I decided that I'd go to the women's retreat. I'd always had a blast and met some incredible women on retreats with my previous church. I also decided to find out what this career care group was all about. It turned out to be a small group for young adults beyond the university years. Something like twentysixthirtysix in Saskatoon. So I went on Wednesday. The leaders and two other young adults were in attendance. At the end, Kelly invited my to a girls movie night ... hence, my new acquaintances.
It's likely that Shakespeare in Love had some effect on my subconscious. After falling asleep on the couch and awaking at 6, then crawling into bed, I had my dream. There were friends and new people to meet. In particular there were two young men. The first I knew was not the one, but there was fun in the chase. In the second, the was angst due in part to the duality that existed. Just before I awoke, he had led me to a spot where we could talk. I stubbornly came along -- for some reason being hurt and upset. When we sat, I asked two questions, and both answers were yes. The first was 'do you hate me?' and the second 'do you love me?'. Then he said the most remarkable thing, the thing that has stuck with me all morning now: And I think the same could be said of you.
What this all means, I am not sure. I'm still searching for community. I'd love to find someone to date. (Even though a certain site has yet to find me a match ... wait, I checked my spam email, and I do have a match. Due to my fantastic internet sleuthing skills, and his user name (first name?) and profession, I now have his work address, phone and email. I may have his home address and phone number. All this is a little creepy, I know. Maybe I should get my eyes checked if my benefits have kicked in at work.) OK, so that last little bit totally derailed my train of though (hee hee, a pun) and took away from the seriousness of it all.
I do want community, although I want define what that community will be. I try not to recreate past community, but every so often I find myself slipping back into old habits. And so, I've gotten involved. Likely far too involved for my own good sometimes. But it's a good way to meet folks.
All that being said, there's now a rumbling in my tummy and a morning haziness that is easily cured with a fresh pot of coffee. I'm sure there's more to come.