Honestly, I thought I might just need a psych consult today. The past few months, I have come to the realization I no longer handle stress very well.
I've been wondering if I was ever supposed to move to this city in the first place? It seems like everything is a struggle here. My job and my car. Sure I've got great friends (yes, you are reading this), but it's still hard being the new friend - trying to fit in to existing social structures.
I just don't want to deal with it all any more. I'm tired of hearing that 'life isn't easy', that 'you'll get through this ok', that 'no one really finds the perfect job they love', that 'persistence is a virtue'. Please don't tell me that any more.
We'll just see how much longer I can hold on.
wind blows deeply
Someone quick, I need a psych consult
Comments
:: Posted by caro (November 23, 2004 9:30 AM)
I know I can't say anything to make it better, but I can say that I have been there (somewhat) and I know how you feel and what you are going through. Give me a call if you need to vent or just talk about it!
:: Posted by Sally (November 23, 2004 1:03 PM)
Thanks girls. I tend to sway back and forth between "I think I can handle it" and "I'm falling apart and just might need professional help".
I have moments when things are good, when I have the support I need, and when I can see myself moving towards my goals. But lately, those moments aren't quite enough to carry me through and I begin to feel completely overwhelmed.
Moving 'out east' and staying here has been an ongoing struggle. Nothing has been easy here. I don't have family, I've left amazing friends, a great church. Then other things were 'taking away' from me here - peace of mind, self-sufficiency, security, and job satisfaction. I've starting to wonder what will be the next thing to go.
I keep thinking that perhaps I'm supposed to be learning dependency on God and perseverence and who knows what else - but it's a struggle to take a step at a time when you've got nothing to go on.
On another note, I'll be home from the 26th to the 1st ... anyone have New Year's plans I can join?
:: Posted by jenjie (November 23, 2004 7:25 PM)
i think i just may know of a party that you would be more then welcome at. :)
:: Posted by tam (November 25, 2004 10:51 AM)
oh Jenn! wish I could do or say something to help! You're in my thoughts and prayers for sure though!