OK, here it comes. Another 'jenn is feeling crappy about her life' blogs.
Before I start, I should mention I'm thankful for a few God interventions this week:
1) I was taking the elevator at work one day this week (up to the 7th floor where the ICU is) - all alone in the elevator - when a man got on at the 2nd floor. As he selected his floor, he noticed my 7th floor selection, and probably glancing at my white lab coat, he asked if I worked on the 7th floor. I said yes, and he responded by saying something like 'it takes a lot of heart to work up there'.
2) Another day this week, the -70 degree freezer in which I was storing 300+ samples for my major research project for this residency began alarming. I was a tad stressed with other things, so it was a panicky hour while I searched the hospital for another department with freezer space I could beg/borrow. It turned out our freezer was fine. The samples are ok. I could have used a few more deep breaths.
Now on to the 'jenn is feeling crappy about her life' bit ...
1) I am disconnected from life around me. I attend all sorts of things, but it's only for an hour or two here and there. Don't get me wrong - I am really thankful for my acquaintances. But that's all they are ... I'm not sure that I can strech any of them into the friend category just yet.
2) Related to the above, I need to figure out the rest of my life pretty soon. I have the opportunity to sign a contract to stay with the Winnipeg health
That's pretty much it. I've really been trying to look for God in the everyday stuff. If I see Him in the small stuff, it might be easier for me to see Him in the big stuff too. *sigh* I just thought it would get easier at some point.